bitches & bonitas

holidays are officially ending.

a nightmare for me because then i'd have to readjust my sleep.

i just woke up at 11pm after a short nap & i guess it will keep me up tonight.

i dont think im going to sleep tonight .

probably will stay up reading and then go cook myself a hearty breakfast when the electric stoves start working at 9am.

i'll go to bed maybe at 10pm tonight like a good , loveable child.

i seriously dont know how am i gonna work when im having my monthly menstruation next time.

i think im gonna OD on NSAIDs until i get a peptic ulcer &/or gi bleed.

argh these freaking cramps.

im gonna go lie down now and curl myself up on the bed.

argh. the so called holidays are ending soon.

i hate having to readjust my sleeping schedule . its a total mess.

i hate it when i've lost my momentum & now i'd have to dreadfully try to gain it back .

i'd rather not have the holidays.(konon)

urghhh.
 

do you keep photos / presents / stuff from your past relationships?

i would of course keep things like clothes , shoes , jewelry but i'd burn all the love letters , delete all their smses  &

throw out all the soft toys. :P

i was going through the clutter in my drawer and found a homemade cd with pictures inside.

its not that sort of homemade video ala paris hilton / edison chen ok!

its a compilation of pictures that i took when i was back in malaysia ranging from many different places.

this is one of my favourite pic:

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i censored that guy's face because he already has a girlfriend now . wahaha . yea , it did not work out between us.

nonetheless, i still like this pic a LOT! i guess i'll copy & keep a few pics that i look nice in & throw the cd away .

if the old dont go , the new wont come eh?

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sometimes i wish that this could all be in like those korean / jap romantic movies.

someone buys my taiping house back for me & maybe ask me to marry him & everything would be wonderful.

i would have a nice place to stay & maybe do my masters.

the truth is life isnt a fairytale at all.

yesterday when i was talking to a friend , he mentioned about how far he came from being someone with nothing

until someone with almost everything. he told me that he loved his life.

i wish i could say the same to myself. i lay in bed , thinking , until it was 6am in the morning.

i try my best not to let those excuses i had in mind defeat my strength.

but sometimes its just not that easy.
 

L is for the way you look at me

O is for the only one i see

V is very very extra ordinary

E is even more than anyone that you adore

Love is more than just a game for two.

I love this version from Joss Stone.

i just got a news that shocked me to the core.

a friend's bf had committed suicide and died. she's my closest fren in form 5.

she thought that the break-up was mutual and then the next day he decided to jump off from 11th floor. *sigh*

i dont know what would i do if i were to be in this situation.

she's probably going to feel guilty for the rest of her life.

im trying to think of what to say to her to make her feel better.

haih. i wish i could be there for her. sigh.

this is our last autumn together. we went to the park for a photo-taking session. everyone had a great time.

some pictures turned out great and some were really funny. this is one of my favourite pic.

Group

as i was going through the collection of pics , i realized how we became closer and closer throughout all these years.

i somehow felt a little sad that this was gonna be the last autumn because when we start working , we probably wont be as close anymore . we would  have our own separate lives .

then one day , in about 10 years time , each and everyone of us will click open these pictures and try to recall how much our lives have changed.

i hope we wont grow apart . love each and everyone of you guys.  xoxo

Autumnleaves2

its the deepavali holidays.

Dont really feel like resting , I mean , 'resting' is what the 6th years literally been doing anyways.

i should maximise all the time that i have by abusing my grey matter. there's so much to learn.

nonetheless , some makan-makan should be alright  :)

happy deepavali ! mwah ! xoxo

my dreams continued today. it is getting weirder & weirder.

 i was off from work . i had to head straight to my dad's wake .

after the wake , there was a dinner that consist around 20 tables . everyone was there. i was seated across my youngest uncle. the food came in & everyone began to eat.

in the next scene , my dad sat right beside me trying to open a pack of 'lo mai chi' - looks more like tau sar piah(in my dream) for some kids.
i saw the kids , they were a pair of twins . one boy and one girl. they had the same grin . i asked my dad why did he wanted to give them the biscuits . he told me that they are spirits and this will make them go away .

as my dad managed to take those rubberbands off , the kids ran over to him and tried to snatch the biscuits away.
i told them sternly : NO! only one each . I'll give you more next time if you behave.  Then , the kids vanished into thin air.

I woke up. My stomach aches and im palpitating . i should stop eating and going straight to sleep.