bitches & bonitas

i just got a news that shocked me to the core.

a friend's bf had committed suicide and died. she's my closest fren in form 5.

she thought that the break-up was mutual and then the next day he decided to jump off from 11th floor. *sigh*

i dont know what would i do if i were to be in this situation.

she's probably going to feel guilty for the rest of her life.

im trying to think of what to say to her to make her feel better.

haih. i wish i could be there for her. sigh.

this is our last autumn together. we went to the park for a photo-taking session. everyone had a great time.

some pictures turned out great and some were really funny. this is one of my favourite pic.

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as i was going through the collection of pics , i realized how we became closer and closer throughout all these years.

i somehow felt a little sad that this was gonna be the last autumn because when we start working , we probably wont be as close anymore . we would  have our own separate lives .

then one day , in about 10 years time , each and everyone of us will click open these pictures and try to recall how much our lives have changed.

i hope we wont grow apart . love each and everyone of you guys.  xoxo

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its the deepavali holidays.

Dont really feel like resting , I mean , 'resting' is what the 6th years literally been doing anyways.

i should maximise all the time that i have by abusing my grey matter. there's so much to learn.

nonetheless , some makan-makan should be alright  :)

happy deepavali ! mwah ! xoxo

my dreams continued today. it is getting weirder & weirder.

 i was off from work . i had to head straight to my dad's wake .

after the wake , there was a dinner that consist around 20 tables . everyone was there. i was seated across my youngest uncle. the food came in & everyone began to eat.

in the next scene , my dad sat right beside me trying to open a pack of 'lo mai chi' - looks more like tau sar piah(in my dream) for some kids.
i saw the kids , they were a pair of twins . one boy and one girl. they had the same grin . i asked my dad why did he wanted to give them the biscuits . he told me that they are spirits and this will make them go away .

as my dad managed to take those rubberbands off , the kids ran over to him and tried to snatch the biscuits away.
i told them sternly : NO! only one each . I'll give you more next time if you behave.  Then , the kids vanished into thin air.

I woke up. My stomach aches and im palpitating . i should stop eating and going straight to sleep.

i kept having dreams about my dad lately. in those dreams , he was still around , joking and doing the usual things that he does when he was still around. in those dreams , we were always seated on a round dinner table in a chinese restaurant or driving around in his black mercedes . today the dream had reversed roles. in this dream , my dad was around but my mom wasnt . my dad called me on my cell and we spoke for a while. i could sense that he was lonely & i immediately felt guilty for not spending enough time with him . then , he told me that he had sent me two postcards and reminded me to check them. i then bid goodbye and told him that i love him. i woke up,puzzled , took a deep breath and tried to pull myself together . its just one of those moments when you cant tell yourself that  'its okay,its just a dream' .

classes have been pretty relaxed which is a BAD thing. sigh.

no pressure whutsoever which is a BAD BAD thing . sigh.

i wonder how far should you go before you realize that it is wrong? for instance , dating your lecturer .

shouldnt we all know when to draw the line?

would you date your teacher?

if i would date someone from school , i would surely date the professor instead of their assistants :P

damn , men with brains never fail to attract me ;D

there are a few things that i cannot live without : my handphone , laptop , eyelash curler and my hairdryer.

today at about 10.30pm while i was blowing my hair , my hairdryer decided to explode and die on me.

there were sparkles shooting out from the wiring and i was frantically trying to pull the plug out of the socket.

and now i dont get to blow-dry my hair :/ . i should just cut it short. argh.

fix my hairdryer for me pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

*messy hair*

2004-brunette-messy

just got back from celebrating alvin's birthday dinner. it was great. there were two other special guests who came along. it was aly and soon chen. alvin bought us all dinner :P so weird. like he's the boss or something.
hehe. anyway i hope he'd upload some of his bday pics soon .

i sort of missed my dad tonight , i dont know why. this led me to think about neo . i just want to thank him for being there  thruout my whole summer holidays to keep me from thinking bout sad stuff , to not die of boredom , to make me feel that im not left alone & most of all , to listen and give me a pat on my back whenever i tell him that ' i miss my dad ' .

just want to thank you. :)

today is actually a public holiday in the ukraine. it is their independence day. i was so blur that i got up and went to dekanat only to find that it was empty. =.=

another weird thing happened today , sveta got so bored that she actually cried in front of me. these russian girls are only 17 years old and it is their first time leaving home. i got over that feeling long time ago although i cry annually each time when i need to leave my parents in the airport. ;p

sveta asked me to go over to her room and talk to her.with my broken-russian i tried my best to speak and understand her. i pat her while she cried .i told her that everything was gonna be alrite(vce budet harasho) and then we spoke for 3 hours until she became happy again.

im now tired. seriously , i never once felt bored this whole holiday. haha. in fact , i wish that i had more time. :)
spakoini noch (goodnite)

i am being stalked by those two chicks. ................ i think they are waiting for me to invite them into my room.
=.=

and i cannot stand the urine-contained-tissue papers being throwned into the waste paper basket in my toilet. ;/

and they wake up at 5.30am in the morning even though its a holiday.

.............. they asked me what time would i usually be up . i told them 10am but actually i only get up during lunch time. :P